Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more day to make up
for the time when you thought they would be here forever? I myself have just lost my dearest grandma
on 16th January 2014. Thirteen days after I came back to MSU, she left me and never come back again.
On Thursday morning (16th January 2014), my mother called me. She told me that my grandma was
seriously sick. I was so shocked. My mother told me to make up my mind for losing. I couldn’t speak
for a while. About 5 minutes later I called back to my mother. The thing that I heard is like something
hit on my head. My heart beat fast. I’m so stunned. My eyes filled with tears and they roll down on my
cheeks as if the waterfall. My grandma is dead. How come..? On New Year’s Day, I went home and cut
her hair and nails, and took her to take a bath. On 3rd January 2014, was time to say goodbye to come
back to MSU. I've never thought that would be the last time forever. Two or three days before she died,
I called up to my parents. We just talked as usual. That time I thought I would ask to talk to my beloved
grandma but I didn't. I didn't even ask how she was. Moreover, my parents didn't tell me at all about her
sickness. I always thought that my grandma was very strong and would be here as long as I would like.
When I realized that I was wrong, it was too late. My dearest grandma always said to me that she didn't
want to die unless I graduate my bachelor’s degree. However, life is uncertain. The death always comes
without any clues. Life is too short to give us a final hug or a chance to saying goodbye. If I had one day
with my dearest grandma, I would spend every single second with her and never be apart. I wish I could
see her again and I would give her long, long hugs, telling her how much I love her. I would tell her that I
had lost my grate inspiration after she was gone. I wish I could have one more chance to saying goodbye
and to say I’m sorry for bad things that I’ve ever done to her. I would like to thank her that she made me
who I’m today. The last thing I would say to her, “My dearest grandma, you should rest in peace forever.
Don’t worry about me. I will never let you down, I promise. I’ll see you again somewhere. I hope you’re
waiting for me in the heaven. I still love and miss you and I’ll do so forever and a day. You will always
be on my mind. I love you forever, Grandma.”
Kanokwan 006 4EN
Sat Feb 15, 2014 3:05 pm